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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Wed, 09 May 2007 14:36:36 GMT

It's That Kind of Day....

I'm sitting here thinking about all the things I need to do today and in what order I need to do them. But clearly, I haven't moved, therefore, I still HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING! Yea, I need to get my act together. I've missed ya, Zanga! These long periods of separation just isn't working for me. Guess this means I need to come back more often.

Around Town

Richmond, VA: So much stuff to do, I don't know where to start....

Edgewater, MD: Stress is building as the weekend approaches....

Baltimore, MD: Towson University, Possibilities?! : /

Friday, July 21, 2006

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 21:21:36 GMT

Kind of Blue: Installment II....

It felt as though it was a cruel twisted, practical joke being played by some immature little school kids. I could not fathom that the man I had just started building a budding connection with was gone. Someone had just reached deep down into the most vulnerable part of my soul and thoughtlessly snatched it out without a care or inclination of understanding. I was told that things happen for a reason and that when all parties involved were ready to reconnect, it would happen. But why did it take sixteen years? What was he waiting for? To this day, I guess I’ll never know.

Around Town

Richmond, VA: Endless posibilities....

Edgewater, MD: Moving on....

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 05:40:26 GMT

Kind of Blue: Installment I....

The bedroom was dimly lit and the crackling from the record player almost seemed loud than the long drawn out note from the trumpet. Miles and his heartfelt music were my solace in moments of confusion. As I stood in front of my turntables, my eyes swirled in circles trying to follow every groove of the pressed vinyl. My thoughts seemed to be jumbled and confused when all of a sudden, it felt like the room went silent. It was deafening. I finally acknowledged the reality of the situation. Why? I don’t understand. Why didn’t anybody tell me? I didn’t know. I wish I had known. Maybe I could have done something or maybe I couldn’t. I didn’t know. I just didn’t know. The record continued to play the sound of melancholy drums with a somber, low, muffled trumpet note carrying all of my thoughts away as the track ended. My father had died.

Around Town

Richmond, VA: Not too shabby....

Edgewater, MD: Sigh....

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 19:44:19 GMT

A Change In The Wind...

Mother Nature is up to her usual tricks....it's that "funny weather" time of year....no flip-flops for me...

Tonight I embark on my journey back up the highway. During my visit, I will be seeing my family...always a good thing, but what's different is that this time, it feels as though I've been away for a very long time. I worry about my grandparents. Damn...I need to hurry up and graduate...

I really did have great intentions for this post. My train of thought is off the tracks.

To be continued...

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 17:35:22 GMT

I Need To Get It Together...

It's now 1:33PM and I have a CA paper due at 3:30PM, but class at 2PM...oh goodness...

More later...

Around Town

Richmond, VA: Okay, but slow and busy all at the same time...

Washington, D.C.: I'd rather be there at the moment. I must hurry up and graduate...

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 06:52:29 GMT

Back From Under A Rock...

The Step Show is over. I breath a heavy sigh of relief...

Okay, so life is supposed to return to normal now? Not hardly...

I always seem to want a "vacation" or just get away for a few days. As I look at the calendar, that task is becoming more and more difficult. Can't someone visit me instead? As selfish as that sounds...I want the proverbial cake and I damn sure want to eat it as well!

This Is What Happens At 3:50AM...

Five Weird Habits!?! (thanks to the O-Man for this)

Do you know how hard this is? I mean think about it. What is a habit?

An established custom
A pattern of behavior acquired through frequent repetition
Excessive use of drugs

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I always wipe the toilet seat down before and after I use it. Okay, so even though I'm in my own apartment where I don't share the bathroom...I still have to clean it. There doesn't have to be anything there...it's just a habit. And don't get me started on public facilities! Better yet, I'll do almost anything possible to avoid using them! !
I change my sheets like clockwork almost every 4 days. It's not like I'm doing anything in particular, it's just that I don't like looking at the same thing constantly. But what may be even more weird is that I don't sleep under all the covers...just between the quilt and the top sheet...
When I get in the bed, for the most part, everything is covered up except for my nose. Fresh air is a must...
It weird how most of this stuff revolves around my bedroom/bed. Yes...I like to nap...
A friend once told me that my mom's house smells like spices. Since then, I have to change my clothes as soon as I walk in the door. I have inside clothes and outside clothes. Please, don't ask...

Around Town

Richmond, VA: It's whatever...it has its moments...

Arlington, VA: Has a Rockbottom Brewery! I think I have a problem...

Anywhere, Else: I'd rather be...

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 14:03:23 GMT

Saturday, September 24, 2005

That date can't get here fast enough. As the show get closer, obviously people are getting stressed out and it is definitely taking a toll on everyone involved. Practicing for 5 hours everyday can definitely become a grueling task and needless to say, it's not fun anymore. I don't know what happened, but I seem to have developed a limp with regards to my left foot. It is in so much pain it's ridiculous. I often ask myself, "What the hell are you doing this for?" I hate going to practice. Once I get there, I'm okay...it's just realizing that I have no "free time" once I get out of class…that’s the bad part. The routine has become so taxing. ie: wake up at 8AM, go to work, go to class, go back to work, go to practice at 7PM…leave practice and at this point, it's 12AM. Then get settled in the apartment...that takes about a ½ hour. Do homework and get some sleep. My head hits the pillow around 3:30AM. I guess I can't really complain since some people have much more stressful schedules, but damn...I'm always tired and feel raggedy. Everybody says I look broke down and tore up. I’m really just going through the motions of everyday, which is bad. That is not FinerWomanhood...

From My Mommy

Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson went on a camping trip. After a good meal and a bottle of wine, they lay down for the night, and went to sleep.
Some hours later, Holmes awoke and nudged his faithful friend.
"Watson, look up at the sky and tell me what you see."
Watson replied, "I see millions and millions of stars."
"What does that tell you?" Holmes asked.
Watson pondered for a minute. "Astronomically, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets.
Astrologically, I observe that Saturn is in Leo. Horologically, I deduce that the time is approximately a quarter past three. Theologically, I can see that God is all-powerful and that we are small and insignificant.
Meteorologically, I suspect that we will have a beautiful day tomorrow.
What does it tell you?"
Holmes was silent for a minute, then spoke.
"Watson, you idiot. Somebody has stolen our tent!"

Around Town

Richmond, VA: Step practice is painful...

Almost Anywhere, USA: I need a vacation...

Friday, September 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 18:33:52 GMT

Broad and Belvidere Streets, Richmond, VA. Never thought I'd ever see gas hit the $3 and up/gallon mark. Great...it looks like I'll be biking.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 00:06:53 GMT

aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 06:32:47 GMT

Can You Ever Give Too Much Of Yourself...?

Sometimes I feel like I give 500% in some of the things that I do but others perceive it as not enough. There has to come a point in time when you decide to "take care of self." Stretching oneself too thin is a sure way to burn out with the quickness. And if I know this, why haven't I been practicing what I preach? I guess it's the cliché of being "easier said than done."

If I reduce my commitment in one area, obviously the other areas greatly benefits. However, I must find that happy medium. At the end of the day, I will need to do what's best for me even though it may turn out to be not what I want. Damn...

Around Town

Richmond, VA: Stressful...

Edgewater, MD: I'm worried about my Grammy. I need to be there...if only for one day...